Uncle

Thank God he has a computer illiteracy.

Recently, his girlfriend bought him a Asus, HDMI (high definition multimedia interface) computer.

I know. what kind of a girlfriend is like that?

By the way, writing about his girlfriend issue (he is 53, for a reference. haha), his girlfriends that he had and has.. are crazy about him.

I, the one who is living with him, see 'nothing' about him that would drive women crazy about him.

But what can I say.. life is full is ironies!!

Looking back on my life that I've been living with him, I rarely saw him having no girlfriends.

He's like a magnet that draws women to him.. and quite frankly.. this is the only thing that I truly respect.. of him..

Okay, so back to the story!

Since he is a computer illiterate, he got to ask me alot about computer stuff that I'm way far from an expert.

But no worries, cause he asks about stuffs like 'how to log in'.

He doesn't know how to even with a paper slip that his girlfriend kindly wrote his id and password for him.

I did it for him.

He'd blink his eyes like a 10 yrs old boy and look at me like computer goddess or something.

and he asks me with a true wonder..

"How did you do that?"

Then, I'd shrug and put my dimple on one side cheek.

I demanded him to pay for the tutoring session, but he refused.

I'm wondering about the kind of intention of his girlfriend for buying him a computer, which he can do nothing about.

He just asked me 'how to join the certain website'.

I told him not to answer that question, because I decided that the website is no reasonable for him to join in.

With a large font size blank ink, it says '19' and red-thick circle surrounds that number on the computer screen.

As soon as he heard a 'no' from me, his face filled with full of disappointment.

He begged me until I disappeared from his room.

Few minutes later..

I opened my door to check how his doing.. like a head resident or something..

I wondered he gave up on that site or what.

I looked the computer screen over his wide back.

He was soundlessly staring at the pictures of three girls looking back and wearing panties.

Where did that computer illiterate person find out? lol

Summer appetite

McDonald's strawberry banana smoothie and Snickers ice cream are making me survive from this hot and steamy summer.

My appetite is little different from others. Or should I say.. I'm just a picky eater.

When I get stuck into some food, I'd just eat that and wouldn't care about what other food are existing other than the ones I'm interested in.

Aren't they look good..

Fitting Room

Fitting room is the space where it makes my jaw drop down.

Oh! These days, I'm mostly working at women's dresses.

Lingerie.. Dresses.. they're sort of combined department.. So I got to work at dresses.. alot.

Holding the dresses that are taller than me and feeling that the small muscle is popping out from my tiny arm..

Tears

It's 2:37.. middle of the night..

While I was in sleep, tears filled my eyes.

Have you ever received the worst feeling from the person you trust most..?

It's the person who I get an immense love from..

at the same time.. person who makes my heart most broken.

It makes me think.

It makes me think that I'm the most selfish person..

It makes me think what the true sacrifice is..

It makes me think that I'm exactly doing the same mistakes that I've been doing over past few years I thought I quited.

I used to despise type of people who are seeking for help when they're in need and turning their backs when they become not desperate.

But while I was laying on my bed, I realized that such type of person was exactly me.. a person who invented such kind of a thought.

I thought that I was vulnerable..

But it could be totally opposite.

And now I believe in this.

This got into my thought and I'm just sad.

If love is the mutual.. then sacrifice should be mutual, also.. right..?

Actually this was soothing me and I admit that I was being selfish.

And that's not the person who I deserve to be.

Not at all..

The Piano Teacher

I just finished reading this book called, The Piano Teacher.

This book was the one that I was able to finish in less than a day, which is pretty unusual for me. (;;;)

The cover looks very enticing, first I thought.

Then, when I opened and started to read, I was little intimidated by the author's broad vocabulary usage.

After, I slowly got used to her style of writing, the quiet classic prose, and enjoyed it somehow.

First of all, it was "very" readable.

But my face was always still while I was reading this.

None of her sentences made me cry or laugh. or overwhelmed.

It's quite weired, because I thought that I've got to enjoy reading this so much since it's so readable! Then I feel like I have nothing to talk about.

I would say.. the book was neither bad nor extraordinary good.. So just moderately good.. I guess..

The setting of this book was Hong Kong during the time periods of pre and post WWII.

This one I actually want to give the author a lot of credits, cause she was definitely sending me to Hong Kong across the ocean.

Densely populated territory, where it is packed with people and tall buildings.

And the party and social life of upper class that Claire, the piano teacher, got to experience.. was portrayed attractively enough to fascinate readers like me, who has been stuck at the mall for almost whole summer.

The theme seems nothing but a betrayal.

Claire is a married woman, who came to Hong Kong to teach Locket, who is a young daughter of the Chens(just the last name) family.

But she started to fall in love with Will, who is a British driver of Chens family.

Will was portrayed as a man who had indifference(pretty much..) about Claire..

But anyway.. they had a love affair..

Then, Claire got to discover the past love that Will had with Trudy, an Eurasian woman who is has an eminent and voluptuous beauty.

As Japan had invaded Hong Kong, Will got into interment camp and Trudy turned away from him and sold herself to Japanese.. in order to survive..

And that's just the basic plot..

There's this.. leery feeling left for this book.

The narrative and settings are good..

However.. the characters are so boring and normal that no curiosity could arouse to have wanting to engage with the characters..

Will.. the guy main character.. in this book.. who is supposed to make my smallest eyes very twinkle..

just made my eyes.. remain the way they are..

Considerate.. gentles.. sacrifice.. these are no where to be found.

He's just abrupt to Claire, like a sharpy pencil.

Overall.. it was just flat and clam..

but wasn't dried..

Thought

I'm surprised by how the thought of me can be unceasingly changing.

I thought I was constantly looking for some eventful things from life, but actually..

Eventful things that I had yearned was happening from my very own.

Now I think so differently from how I used to think.

It's like my in-depth personality was just got replaced by something else in over night.

All the important priorities that I had valued now seem.. not precious to me anymore.

Most of my belief that I thought is good and worth it became unattractive to me anymore.

First priority was swapped with the bottom one.

Have you ever experienced this..?

It's quite a weird feeling.

My college years aren't done yet, so I didn't even get to enter into another phase of life, yet.

But it seems like my mind just did enter another phase.

I don't think that this kind of realization came off in all the sudden; but it's rather like all the weird blend of worries, skepticism, tears, wandering has been compiled unknowingly for several years and eventually created a person whose inner side became so different from who she was.

Opposite of Love (Ending)

So I finished the book 'Opposite of Love'.

A successful attorney, yet thirty, who lives in New York and who had a happy relationship with her boyfriend.. and who was proposed by this guy.. Andrew..

Seems like she couldn't ask for more from life.

Well.. While other people may think that she was enviable, Emily Haxby thought that she perhaps, deserved none of them.

Rather, she got all the confusions with her relationship and with the question mark of who she really is.

Maybe those were all superficial, she would have thought.

Carl.. is Emily's boss and who would love to give her a sexual harassment.

Mason.. is Emily's co-worker.. he might be a hottie, like a roasted chicken that skin is brushed off with glossy melted butter and is just cooked under screaming hot temperature in the oven.

But underneath that silky seducing skin, the chunky meatiness was all filled up with his desire to have a casual sex with Emily..

Emily's father.. who Emily had a lack of communication and distant relationship with..

Emily's mother.. who Emily thought, had been fading from her memory for so long.. but in the deeper root.. who Emily always has missed.. wanted to receive an unconditional love from.. and the kind of love that is irreplaceable.

Her grandpa Jack, got Alzheimer disease but who always put Emily first. no matter what.

One day, Emily talked with her friend, Katie.

Katie has been married to her husband for several years, and she told Emily that their marriage was all about timing.. that her husband showed up in Katie's life at the right moment at the right time.

But what Emily asked was.. 'would you give him your kidney'.

Katie was hesitant to give an answer.. and she didn't answer it all..

Meanwhile.. Emily started to find herself.. how she incredibly got to miss Andrew.. his smile.. his habits.. just the littlest things that Emily only can recognize.. the times and memories they had shared with..

All those overwhelming feeling of missing Andrew has grew up uncontrollably, like a big snow ball.. and was throwing at Emily's heart..

Emily finally realized that she would have given her kidney to Andrew if he needed it.

When Emily actually e-mailed him and started to show her sincereness.. she realized that Andrew has moved on.. and Andrew responded back that just leave him alone.

Lastly.. she realized this...

'Maybe sometimes you have to do what's scariest in order to get where you need to be.'

So she went to Andrew's place and confessed that she actually was a mess and wasn't ready to accept his proposal at that time.. and she insisted that she's different now.

Finally, their relationship got restored.. and grandpa Jack died from the disease.

Although i was little disappointed at the ending that Emily got back to Andrew.. eventually.. but her book was still very readable and made me laugh.

Funny Episodes

All three episodes were taking place at.. macy's.. lol

1> Name

Seeing my name tag, a customer told me that her daughter's name was used to be same as mine, but then she changed it to Judith now. She used to call her Judith 'intentionally' when she got mad at her.

The reason for changing of her name was that she wanted to look and seem more mature to her students at community college, since she told me that her daughter is tiny like me.

2> Wow, grandpa!

When I saw this grandpa walking into the store with his billing statements and cash on his hands, I had to laugh with no thinking, but with the sight that was in front of me.

Half of his prominent muscular and masculine chest got all notoriously exposed throughout his deeply caved-in towards the south, sleeveless gray shirt.

When I looked into that chest, they seemed almost as if waiting to be checked out by the girls at the swimming pool.

But when I lifted my head up and looked at his actual face where he matched up his gray hair with his gray color shirt.

Yea.. somehow that unbalancedness tickled my stomach and I burst into belly laugh. My already small eyes got even far smaller for my face and my big opened mouth got scared to watch.

3> Panties and shorts controversy

When my co-worker brought the panties-like or shorts-like or vice-versa kinda cloth and asked me what is this, suddenly, few sentences jumped through my head.

-Hmm.. It's a questionable length. If she wears that as panties, it'd be kind of overwhelming size as regards to panties. On the other hand, if she wears that as shorts, I'm def. sure that most portions of her thigh would be exposed. I mean.. literally most. Or even more than a most.

I really didn't know whether that was panties or shorts. So I nicely instructed her, 'just go outside with wearing that thing and "insist" that it's a shorts if anyone asks you'.

When I actually scanned that, it came off as 'panties'.

Well.. Although it came off as panties, now I kind of realized that that was neither panties nor shorts, but more like shorties with a band thing in the middle to tighten up.

+) A memorable quote from Toy Story 3.

-As Andy pulls out Woody from the box..

"Now Woody, he's been my pal for as long as I can remember. He's brave, like a cowboy should be. And kind, and smart. But the thing that makes Woody special, is he'll never give up on you... ever. He'll be there for you, no matter what."